My Life This Week is...

well, what isn't it?

This morning I woke up at 6 to finish grading papers (when do I not have a pile in front of me?) and then I looked at a 2 bedroom apartment in the same complex as mine. Two previous horror stories about looking at apartments: 1) man said "absolutely no pets" and I said "well I'll still look" and hung up and immediately cried and apologized to the kids and called the next morning and said "no thank you, I don't want to waste your time;" and 2) had another appointment this morning to see a property and realized I did not have time enough and called and said "well I think today is poor timing" and the man said "oh that's good, it saves me a trip. I rented that property yesterday, anyhow." Well what!? Why hadn't I been notified mister? I didn't bother asking; it was a win-win either way.

So after looking at this 2 bedroom in my unit I've decided, no, maybe I will simply not move, so I'm going at 3:30 after work (yes, I'm blogging at the office, what do you wanna say about it?) and I'll renew my current lease. BUT I still intend to box a lot of stuff up, go through all my clothes as if I were moving, get the carpets cleaned etc... so that it still feels like starting over.

Because it is.

This summer, after graduation (and Bill Clinton is the keynote, so, wow, and stuff) I will be waiting tables and babysitting. With my fancy degree I will bring soup, salad and breadsticks and thank everyone and wish everyone a good day and dream about some day paying back all my debt. Oh well.

In the Fall I'm going to Berlin, however. Doesn't that just make everything feel super? I'll be there for three months for an internship that I will fill you in on later but, all in all, it's incredible and I couldn't be happier.

There is always so much future to be looking forward to. You just need to see it.

<3
-L